so my ncos are meeting in about 10 minutes with a doc to make the final choice who is going to deploy from my floor.. again... last one that went was in the building at hood when that ass started shooting.. she got hit so now we have to replace her for the deployment.. well my name is on the short list this time.. so nervous to find out if im deploying... i want to deploy but wow.. so nervous and i have been up since 1830 last night had to work.. now i cant sleep till i know... im so tired but cant go to sleep...
{EDIT}
nope no deployment for me yet..

wish it would have been i want to go.. oh well not my time yet