So i have started smiling again!! It is so wonderful. The last oh 6 months i have been up happy even though i loved the guy i was with i wasnt happy. I figured something wasnt quite right and i was right. He lied to me about loving me, that is a huge thing for me so i decided to dump him begginin of the month. well... he is now acting like a baby and like its my fault we broke up.. hello you shouldnt have told me you loved me if you didnt.. well anyways i have found me a new guy he is so so sweet and i have had feelings for him since before he went to iraq almost 2 years ago is when he left *oct 07* he has been back since end of oct 08 and we have been talkin since.. and the last month talking to him every day has been amazing. I have been smiling all the time!! the only problem is we are both army and he is at ft. campbell and im at ft. benning 6 hours away... but we are making it work.. sunday we are gonna meet halfway after i get off work and he is rested a little bit from spending 3 days in the field.. ahhh i cant wait to see him!!! ok anyways im suppose to be "working" right now.. so back to work i go...